Okay...I think I'm finally ready to admit I have a serious problem. A very dirty side to me that has been apart of me for as long as I can remember. It started in childhood, around 3 years old. My nanny/housekeeper did this to me;she is to blame. After countless friends, roommates, parental units, a husband, and a new boyfriend have brought this to my attention...I must face the facts: I AM A SLOB....Mounds of clothes pile up in each corner of my room; my closet has more clothes on the ground than on hangers; stacks of unpaid or paid (I'm not sure) bills are scattered across my dining room table and make up is scattered from one end of my bathroom to another.
Ever notice how hard it is to acknowledge the truth. Even if it's a truth you've always known...just never admitted? Although, the peroxide from my fake blond hair has soaked into my scalp,traveled down to my brain and caused a few 'blond moments' --I'm not a complete idiot. I have two eyes...I see the chaotic plethora of disorganized madness I call my life. It's always worked for me though...I mean, it has come in handy on more than one occasion the fact that I have about 3 pairs of shoes and at least one change of clothes in my car.
Had a Huge fight with the bf this morning....over what? --My inability to keep a living facility clean. He gives me a call....saying this has been bothering him for a long time and then has an explosion mouth diarrhea over how my mess affects his life. Now of course, natural tendency of mine--I throw up the dukes, get into defense mode ready to battle it out. My rebuttal? -You are grumpy, you are mean, you are a clean-freak, "if you don't like who I am, then why are you with me"? But as I have sat here thinking.....one person tells you something, it might not be true but if a zillion people tell you the same thing?? -Dang gurl, you best be listenen to dat!!
So many people (including myself) are convinced they shouldn't have to change. Having the mind set I am who I am, 'love it or leave it'. But why do we do this? Are we not suppose to strive to be better--especially as Christians. Sure, it hurts my pride for someone to pick out a flaw in me....it doesn't 'feel' good but how do our flaws hurt the ones around us. Why should they have to pick up the slack for where we fail. Don't get me wrong, I think this it what family and friends are for...they pick you up when you are down...help carry the load you can't carry yourself....for a season in life. That's where I have missed the boat. I usually just think, yeah I'm messy but my mom is SUPER clean.....she must enjoy cleaning. Or, Mark has a clean house and magically it stays that way, even when I'm there...I wonder if there is a laundry fairy living there (yeah right!)? But that's not fair to them. I have to do better, be better to them. I need to show respect for others and not let my tolerance of clutter infect their sterile little worlds....I will do better!
I wish there was a college course in Tidiness 101. Any suggestions for easy or fun ways to keep clean? Stay organized? I need help people!!