Friday, January 23, 2009

Dr. Seuss..You are So Wise..Your Silly Book put Tears in my Eyes

Did you like my rhyme?? I thought you would....

A few weeks into Mark and I dating, he bought me the book "Oh the Places You'll Go" by Dr. Seuss. I children's book. Not too romantic and slightly awkward.

"Thanks??" I replied cautiously, honored by the gesture of him giving me a gift but unsure of the thought behind it.

"Maybe it was his favorite book as a child" I thought to myself. Giving him the benefit of the doubt.

"Or maybe he looks at me as a child" --super creepy. This isn't some weird fetish is it? :) jhehe

No, it was none of those things. Mark knew what I needed to heal and gave me a "little push" in the form of a famous children's book.

I had read it as a child once or twice and seen it in passing nearly every time I went into a bookstore. When people ask you about books that have changed their life, you will often hear famous author like "Emily Bronte, Charles Dickens, John Piper etc". But not often is Dr. Seuss put into that group. I wanted to share with you, my friends, a few sections in the book "Oh the Places You'll Go" and how it reflects the times I have gone through and am still going through and the hope I have, through my Lord Jesus, to end my story, my road like this story does.

Wherever you fly, you’ll be the best of the best.

Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.

Except when you don’t

Because, sometimes, you won’t.

I’m sorry to say so

but, sadly, it’s true

and hang-ups

can happen to you.

You can get all hung up

in a prickle-ly perch.

And your gang will fly on.

You’ll be left in a Lurch.

You’ll come down from the Lurch

with an unpleasant bump.

And the chances are, then,

that you’ll be in a Slump.

And when you’re in a Slump,

you’re not in for much fun.

Un-slumping yourself

is not easily done........

Oh, the places you’ll go!

There is fun to be done!

There are points to be scored.

There are games to be won.


You’ll be famous as famous can be,

with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.

Except when they don’t.

Because, sometimes, they won’t.

I’m afraid that some times

you’ll play lonely games too.

Games you can’t win’cause you’ll play against you.

All Alone!

Whether you like it or not,

Alone will be something

you’ll be quite a lot.

And when you’re alone,

there’s a very good chance

you’ll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.

There are some, down the road between hither and yon

,that can scare you so much you won’t want to go on.

But on you will go

though the weather be foul

On you will go

though your enemies prowl

On you will go

though your arms may get sore

and your sneakers may leak.

On and on you will hike

and I know you’ll hike far

and face up to your problems

whatever they are.

You’ll get mixed up, of course,

as you already know....

And will you succeed?

Yes! You will, indeed!

(98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed.)


So…be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Brayor Mordecai Ali Van Allen O’Shea,you’re off to Great Places!Today is your day!Your mountain is waiting.So…get on your way!Dr. Seuss

Monday, January 19, 2009

Funny Kid Story

Hanging out with Mark's kids has been such a joy. They are hilarious.

Over the Christmas holidays Mark, Julia, Mitch and I were eating dinner and talking about Christmas. We were asking each other Christmas questions, such as: "What is your favorite Christmas song", or "What is your favorite thing about Christmas". Mark proceed to ask Julia how she would decorate her very own Christmas tree. When Julia was reluctant to answer, Mark starting teasing her saying that he bet Julia would hang up her underwear on the tree. Out of nowhere, a laughing Mitch yelled, "Dad, can we put some breast on the Christmas tree??" We died laughing....we found out he meant to say 'bra', but he was hilarious coming out of that little boys mouth.

This Sunday I went over and had breakfast with Mark and the kiddos before church. Mark had some great old school hymns playing in the background....Mitch was quietly singing along. I began to pay attention to what he was singing....

"I'm still alive, I'm still alive, no darkness, no night...Praise the Lord, I'm still alive!!". Well, it may not be the right words of "I saw the light" but hey, in Mitch's defense...if he wants to Praise the Lord for still being alive...I certainly see no problem with it.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Feeling bad about yourself?? Just call mom...

I love my mom. She is really an encouragement...Not only lately but throughout my entire life. It is so nice having someone who thinks you are the closest thing to perfection-at least to them. She never spanked me as a child--no, not even once (maybe that's the reason I turned out this way...haha). She truly has her blinders on when it comes to me, and I am so very thankful for that.

I love you Mom!

Monday, January 12, 2009

When does the Hurt finally go away?

I feel like I had the wind knocked out of me this morning and I'm still struggling to get a full breath. So many times you hear the expression of a "broken heart". It's amazing to me that when you are heartbroken, you can actually feel, physically, your heart hurting. It is like this dull, constant, ache in your chest that travels throughout your entire body....but it starts right there in your heart, in your least for me anyways. That's where I can feel it today.

One of my themed sayings lately is "Life is just hard". So matter of fact....but today I feel like "Life is just too hard". It's these types of days when you feel like you have made huge strides in your life. Like your three steps forward but it take only one day like today and are five steps back. Once again feeling the same broken emotions you felt months ago. Suffering from the same hurt you thought you had "healed" from. But here I am...eyes swollen, heart heavy and on my knees...praying for the healing I thought I had already recovered from.

I guess this was God's way of making sure I didn't get too big for my britches. Letting me know that I am NOT fully healed and that I do still have a long ways to go. I am thankful for a God who sees my tears, knows my heart and will heal me when I am ready.